Out of the ashes...

Out of the ashes comes beauty...

My seminary week is over, and I am happy to be back at home and back at work, today was actually a quite busy day!

God has been good to me, he blessed me with some interessting thoughts during the end of the week. One of these girls told me: "You need to experience this, before you can really understand what I am going through..." but honestly I really don't want to! I don't want to experience how it feels to be used by someone you can't even be sure of, if he is faithful... I don't wanna know how it is to be in a sexual relationsship without the security and blessing of God's given frame - the marriage! I don't want to call him five times a day, cause I need to make sure, that he is fine and thinking of me and only me!

So I am blessed to still be single, I am blessed to be able to concentrate on the greatest lover of all, who always is faithful, and I am blessed to be able to stay pure till the day that the "right one" comes along... who deserves that I am not used up by then!

Thank you God, You are so good to me! :-)

Lonely...

Can there be something worse than having one girl constantly talking about and with her boyfriend?
Yes! Three girls doing so... :-(
I don't know why, but somehow we choose for this seminary week the topic "Broken Personalities"... and I am most likely to feel like one of them if this continues the way it started!
It seems like everyone is trying to drive me crazy, I'm in a four bed room, and each of my three roommates has a boyfriend, which is not particularly a problem, but the fact that they are calling their boyfriends like 5 times a day writing them text messages at night and constantly talk about them, does not make it easier for me...
Seriously, I am not even jealous, cause this would be way to much for me, but strangly I feel excluded in a way I can't describe... I do not understand what they are talking about, and all three are more than 3 years younger than me!
Please pray for me, that I might survive this week without beeing broken... 'cause I do not quite understand what all this is doing to me, but I feel very lonely :-(
 On the other hand we are facing our past, we had to think about tragic moments in our lives, and I realized, that I do still struggle with the man, that kind of abused my soul this summer, it hurts to think of what he did to me, and I really cannot see any good, that could come from this...
Please bear with me this week - I know that God is hearing our prayers!
Thanks!